Big 2 Year Old

On October 13 my little girl turned two years old. She loves birthdays and was so excited that it was going to be her birthday. She got the biggest smile on her face when ever we told her happy birthday. I was happy for her b/c she was so happy but a little part of me was a little sad. I couldn't believe and still can't that my little girl is two years old. When a baby is born you start off by saying, "my baby is 1 week old, 3 weeks old..and so on." Then you reach a point than you say "my baby is one month, two months, 6 months, 18 months old and so on." I got really sad the night before Paige's birthday as I realized that she will just be 2 years old now. She is officially no longer a baby. She is my little toddler, my little girl!
I think Heavenly Father makes each age so much fun though, to make it easier on us mommies. If Paige wasn't so much fun I really would be bawling that she is growing so fast. Silly thought I know. Paige is so much fun though and she makes me so happy!

Paige wanted pancakes for her birthday breakfast...her favorite!

Present time..I was surprised, she opened them all by her self.

Paige and her cake

Enjoying ice cream and cake with her cousins!

4 post in one!!

Well it's been about a month since I last made a post and I am happy to report that we are doing good. We still get sad when we think about our little girl Aubrey but we are doing better. We have really tried to keep busy, and I think we have done a good job at that. Here is what we have been up to!! Warning...I have a lot of pictures so if my computer does what I want there will be a lot!!

Garets Birthday

Garets Birthday was last Saturday, conference weekend. We got to go to the Cabin listen to conference and celebrate his birthday. It was so fun to get away! It was so pretty. The weather was great, the company was great, the activities were great and the food was delicious!! What more can you ask for?

It rained on Saturday, and then was really foggy. It was so pretty! Sunday the weather was beautiful!!!

Garet opening up his presents with the help of Paige.

Paige loves birthdays and was so excited it was her Daddy's birthday!

Garet blowing out 28 candles!

Paige enjoying the yummy food!

Mom brought a craft for us to do while the guys were at priesthood session!

Paige playing in the dirt!! She got soo soo dirty! But who cares right??

Paige stopping and smelling the flowers while on a walk.

Kasey drew this picture of the temple in about 5 min on the sidewalk. Paige was amazed! Doesn't it look awesome.

I told Paige that these were pine cones..and she kept calling them pineapples. It was kinda funny!!

Little miss Madi...all comfy for our hike! (doesn't it look like she is saying a little prayer)My Grandpa always says, "Everything taste better when eaten at the cabin." I think that's true but..we also grill out a lot and what is yummier then that? Isn't that a ton of meat?

The gang...minus dad our photographer!

Garet we love you and hope you had a good birthday/weekend. Thanks for all you do. You are a wonderful husband, and father!

Sister's visit!!

I was so excited to get a text message from Marlee saying she was going to come to my house, bring her baby, my sister Allison and her two kids and my mom. It was so spontaneous...and my family is usually not spontaneous. It was so much fun! They came at a great time to. It was a nice needed distraction! We visited, visited, went on walks, went shopping (@Walmart..where else would we go here?) visited and decorated my house finally!! Here are the only pictures I have. Again I wasn't very good.

See Kade and Paige really do love each other!!

We thought this was so cute. Both the kids put on their own shoes. Didn't they do a good job. They were sure proud of themselves...and didn't feel like they needed to change them.


Yeah!! This is the Gila Valley temple. They put the Angel Moroni up the day before my sisters came...so of course we had to go see it! Its so exciting. It is looking so good! I can't wait until they are finished!

Visit from friends!

We have so many great friends. We have received lots of cards, phone calls, emails, comments and visits from friends. Here are some pictures of some of our visitors. This is Justin and Kiri Woodside. They were part of our little family away from home in Texas and dear friends. They came and stayed the weekend with us. Paige also enjoyed playing with there little boy Jaron. I got to watch the R.S. conference with Kiri. It was so much fun! I hope we can go visit them soon.


Maren my best friend since I was 4 came and visited from Wilcox with her kids. It was great to see her and visit with her. I love that she is only 45 min away from us. Piage had fun playing with her kids. It was really cute. Travis and Paige were walking around the house holding hands....instant friendship:)!



Brandi, Bruce and Braden Bryce also came and visited. Brandi is one my best friends from High School and college roommate. She married Garets High School friend Bruce. Bruce set Garet and I up on our first date. I am sad I didn't' get any pictures of them. Paige also loves playing with Braden. They left over 2 weeks ago and Paige still talks about Braden.

Visit to Grandma Haymore's

We had a good time visiting my mom in Sierra Vista. Paige got to play with her cousins all day long!!

Paige really loves her cousin Kade and always asks when we can go to his house. This picture is of two little TIRED, kids wanting to play with the same toy. Allison and I heard lots of crying and screaming from the house. We ran outside and just started laughing. We had to go grab our cameras and take pictures. Allison actually has better pictures. Paige wanted in the car so she climbed through the window, then kicked open the door that Kade was trying to keep closed to keep Paige out. It was funny!!

Paige also loves her cousin Madison. She gets excited when she holds her. When she's not holding her she gets in her face and says, " Hi Madi, Hi Madi" over and over again. Madi was born the day before Aubrey was. I know these two little girls were friends up in heaven. I also get excited to hold Madi and find of comfort from holding her.

Come What May and Love It!!

This past week has been, as expected and emotional roller coaster. One minute I'll be happy and the next I'll be crying or really sad (on the verge of crying.) I know this is expected with a loss but...the hormones don't make it any better. :)!!!! As stated before I am so grateful for my family and friends...and the friends I have made, and the support they all have been. My sister in-law called me last week and reminded me of a talk given last year at the October conference. I loved the talk then and love it even more now. I was really down a couple nights ago and decided to pull the talk out that my sister in-law had made a reference to. It really made me feel so much better. Some of my favorite quotes from Elder Worthlin were: - If we approach adversities wisely, our hardest times can be times of greatest growth, which in turn can lead toward times of greatest happiness. - The dial on the wheel of sorrow eventually points to each of us. At one time or another, everyone must experience sorrow. No one is exempt. - The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude. - "God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son." the Lord Jesus Christ is our partner, helper, and advocate. He wants us to be happy. He wants us to be successful. If we do our part, He will step in. He who descended below all things will come to our aid. He will comfort and uphold us. He will strengthen us in our weakness and fortify us in our distress. He will make weak things become strong. I am so grateful for the gospel of Jesus Christ! I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, and I am grateful for a living prophet and apostles!! On a little different note: Paige has been so good these last couple weeks. I really think she is extra sensitive to my feelings. She has been extra cuddly when I've needed to just hold someone and cry and she has been there to make me smile and laugh when I needed it. Really she has been super funny this past week. I think I have laughed at her (or with her) many times during the day. She really is talking ALOT!!! I really don't know any different but from what I have been told its not common that they talk this much at her age. My dad even told me while I was at home..."Man if you think she talks alot now wait until she is supposed to be talking and then you'll really think she talks alot!" She also is mom's little helper and tries to do whatever I do. Whenever I am doing anything she says, " I help mom" and then she pushes her chair over to where I am and tries to help me make dinner, do the dishes, dust, clean the bathroom...you name it. She gets in the way sometimes but its really funny! She also loves her dolls right now. She will play with them all day. I love listening to her "take care" of them. She often says things to them that I say to her when I change her diaper, give her food, put her to bed and get her out of bed. Its so cute and really makes me smile. I love this little girl and feel so blessed to be her mother!!!

Paige changing her baby's diaper

Paige helping me make cookies! Paige helping me make chips and salsa Paige cleaning her toilet while I cleaned the "big" toilet. Paige just being her cute messy self!!!

Our Sweet Angel

Last Wednesday our sweet little Aubrey was born 4 months early. Her lungs weren't developed enough to stay in this world. The doctors and nurses weren't sure if our baby was going to have a heartbeat or not at birth. They tried to prepare us for both situations. Our sweet little girl was not born with a heartbeat thus considered a still born child. She weighed 9 oz and was 9 inches long.




Our Story: My water broke Tuesday afternoon. Garet and I rushed to the emergency room. There we found out that Aubrey's heartbeat remained nice and strong but an ultrasound confirmed that I didn't have very much amniotic fluid left in my body. The doctor wasn't sure if this little amount would be enough to sustain our little girl. He sent me home on bedrest with a referral to see a specialist in Tucson the next day. So the next morning we woke up and drove to Tucson. My mom and dad were with us. The unknown was scary. I was scared of what the future might bring. I already loved this baby that I had been feeling inside me for weeks. I was scared for the child. I was scared for myself. Mom, Dad, and Garet were a great support. I had a prayer in my heart all day. I knew I couldn't do this alone.
They pulled us back and did another ultrasound. I could see that that Aubrey still had a good heartbeat but, I knew something was still wrong. The doctor confirmed my feelings and stated there wasn't ANY amniotic fluid left around the baby. She said the baby couldn't continue to develope properly without the amniotic fluid and that I would have to be induced. If chose not to I would pose great risk to myself for infections and for future pregnancies. I was then admitted to TMC to start the induction. I was so scared, sad and heartbroken.
I continued to feel the baby move at the hospital with the little contractions that I had. Soon the contractions started getting harder and I didn't feel the baby move as much. After 5 hours of labor our sweet little Aubrey was born. She was a beautiful little girl. A little girl that I would not raise at this time, and a little girl that I couldn't take home with me. My heart was broken but when the nurse placed this little girl in my arms I felt at peace. I know that even though I long for her to be with us on earth at this time, I know that I will be able to raise this sweet girl once again. I am grateful for priesthood blessings, grateful for a loving husband, supportive parents, family and friends. I really appreciate all the notes/text messages/phone calls that have been sent our way. I am also grateful for a kind, loving Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
I know the next couple weeks/months/year is going to be hard but I know that with the help of my Savior I will be able to get through.